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tonguetieandsqueamish said: Optimistic thoughts: Ironflint Alex trying. He talks to Mulligan and doesn't admit anything about doubts or suppressed realizations, but Mulligan smiles at him and Alex can't smile back, can't smirk or sneer or fake geniality, no he grits his teeth instead, and it should feel like a failure (it does) but it's an acknowledgement too, finally. Alex writing down all that's wrong with him, even the uncontrollable aspects, then burning it. Alex destroying his old life viciously and rebuilding anew.

i was thinking about this, and somehow it lead me to it’s quiet uptown, circa ironflint.

“hey, eliza. um. look. i’m – i quit. and, um.. i’m … i’m sorry? that i fucked up. like.. really bad.”

“the apology sounds real good three years later, alex.”

“right. um. better late than never! so, uh. i was wondering - if. if maybe.. i could… – take you to dinner? we don’t even have to fuck after. i swear.”

“…………..”

“somewhere really nice. like really nice. like there isn’t even a menu nice. like wear a slinky black dress nice.”

“….ok. i guess you’ve convinced me.”

“wow, fuck. i didn’t – expect that to work. shit. ok. anyway. i can do this. i’m going to – fuck. i’m just going. i’ll call you with more details.’