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[iniquiticity]

Anonymous asked
Hamilton writing to Eliza about how changed his relationship with Washington is and putting it down in writing that he's in love ❤️❤️❤️

(actually i don’t think this is very good. but that’s ok.)

my dear betsey,

(i hope your darling wife should not be upset that i have taken her nickname for you. it is only that you possess all the charm and cheer of a betsey, as i always know you have! if so please pass on my most sincere apologies and perhaps suggest i am unworthy of further punishment and have atoned on my own.)

i write to you today to wonder if for the time you have known the most esteemed general, given that it was before i, if he always maintained his peculiar habits, which i admit some affection for. is it peculiar, that i am odd and unruly, and yet i have found a man of such great stature who i think would be me, had i been told as a youth to manage myself properly? now it seems i have such well-entrenched habits i can no longer not do them. but fear not! it is hand, one might find, to have a husband who appreciates a man who does now bow to these meaningless social conventions. i shall wear shoes and a neckcloth when it pleases me. (if you are looking to seduce your wife, i would suggest going without a neckcloth, and pretending as if this is average. i think he thinks i do not know that he prefers it.)

i digress. the reason i write you today is to discuss a peculiar habit i have noticed about him and solicit your advice regarding and if it could be a symptom of some larger issue. i am certain that is is not a character flaw, that generally speaking the general does not have character flaws in a meaningful way, other than he sometimes believes he is as brilliant as men think he is. the issue in question is that he is very particular about his desk. now you may think ‘particular’ is a general term meant for a man who likes things to be how he like them. certainly, men have preferences! but i must say with confidence that my husband’s preferences are absurd. there is a very specific sort of quill which he desires, and it is only worse becuase lafayette enables him with his specifications. and there is a specific order in which things must be on his desk. these are only a small number of his particular tastes. if you upset his tastes, he will very softly wonder to himself, but seem to speak it, why a thing has been disturbed. also, if a particular thing is moved, he may move it back without noticing, as if there is a magnetic pole to many things, and they must always be calibrated.

do you think this is a symptom of a larger concern? certainly my husband is not immune from illness or other - as i have explained, he has a persistent sulk, which occasionally damages his ability to sleep or be productive. could there be a connection, do you think? shall i call the doctor? on one hand, lafayette has no concern, and lafayette is concerned if a leaf falls tenderly upon his excellency’s head in the wrong manner.

although i must confess i do maintain some affection for the moment where he has noticed something is off about his items and becomes only the fainted bit irritated. he has an act to him, you see, where he is clearly upset, but does not wish to show it. (being upset is rude. it is rude to be in any way a man who has desires. a gentleman, you see, is not much. this is why i do not prefer to be one, when i am able.) and then he will go asking around to find the reason things have been disturbed. such are catastrophes, at this moment, in the house of washington-schuyler. the wrong quill as been acquired.

nonetheless. please let me know what you think of this matter. certainly as you know you are a lady of great wisdom and opinion, etc. please also request the opinion of your dearest wife, of which you know i hold grand affections for. if you see either of your sisters, also send them my most affectionate greetings. please keep in mind that i do expect to see you at lord church’s on the 12th even he is an insensible boor.

your humblest & most obedient servant and ever affectionate brother,

a. schuyler-washington